ABILENE, Texas — James Wagstaff grew up in Abilene with a secret -- he's gay.
It was a secret that lead him down a path of serving others and addiction.
You drink so you don't feel
Wagstaff would try and drink his pain away.
"There were many times I thought about suicide," said Wagstaff.
He spent nearly a decade in New York City.
It was in the Big Apple he pushed for gay rights and help pass the New York Hate Crimes Act of 2000.
But many memories of growing up in a small town haunted him.
"When people are tearing you down from the pulpit in the churches around town and saying you're not wanted," said Wagstaff.
Wagstaff is a man of faith and conservative.
Many of his values go with the Abilene population.
But in the 80s, Wagstaff's sexuality would be the dividing point.
"Growing up as gay and being depressed in Abilene, not thinking I could be myself," said Wagstaff.
In the late 90s, he had the courage to come out to his family.
He would travel between New York and Abilene.
Wagstaff found that people were now open to who he was.
Wagstaff is now 15 years clean.
He is back in Abilene and is helping lead the first Abilene pride parade.
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Abilene Pride Alliance is also trying to bridge the Gap in Abilene, providing a list of resources that is LGBTQIA-friendly.
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